Blogging Exercise Redux (Friday, October, 2008)

To manage transitions does appear to be a skill anyone would want to have, me included. It is just that when one has to summon what it takes to make a transition, a real process of looking for sources of the self, especially as they are likely to go through a mutation, has a chance to start in earnest. At the site of multiple negotiations of memories, discourses, and languages, a tentative way of approaching space, of imaginations, of cities, and of movements, becomes being accessible - not because of knowing beforehand how to do it but because of the mere necessity of making a next move, like in a game of chess, when a succession of alternating strategic and tactical steps lets a judgment on overall success or failure to be made. However, in a situation with far more alternatives, far less transparency, and far reaching absence of stakes, I wonder how one can reformulate the playing field of choosing, acting, and evaluating. Sounds resigned. But even in breaking rules, roles, and moulds, a new and tentative form of ordering strives to emerge. As in our everyday life I suppose. Repetition and difference of the routinized ways of behaving oneself - and strange that behaving others come linguistically across as a contemplative turn of speech and, upon a reflection, thought - reveal themselves to work both ways - expectedly and unexpectedly at once, given that this once is an element in a series, very much like a singularity in Deleuze's logic of thought.